RE: San Diego Burning, San Diego Shrinking

san diego is not shrinking. naturally people's desire to move forward is. post high school syndrome consists of apathy leading to the concept of fearing failure thus leading to holding onto everything they can from the past that they know is right in hopes that they dont progress into an unsure future. at such an ambiguous uncertain stage in life people cling to what they know and feel comfortable with, instead of embracing the inevitable unfamiliar change... go astray. you can only be lost for so long until the anomalous becomes familiar, and you create a new comfort...... i too am a victim myself at times, but to a certain extent everyone is, its natural. the importance is awarness, the first step of realization. i may not know the answer. but i at least know there is an answer..."

response by Josh Wessling; guest writer.

San Diego Burning, San Diego Shrinking

So the fires have come and go. Or is it still going? I'm not sure at this point, but it sure is shrinking.

Lately I've been either running into or having some sort of contact with people I often don't think about anymore. People who have become acquaintances of the past... is it because SD is shrinking?

Fire &Ice

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

Robert Frost

Midterms

Sitting in Economics 1 Midterm Review half-paying attention...

Is it really the smart thing to do?

I feel as if I'm better off leaving this instant, locking myself up in that minute cubicle I've been calling "home", and studying via textbooks.

Yes?

I'm leaving right now.

i'm holding on

this is vladimir, for once.

i know, i know. but don't faint just yet.

life has been anything but amazing recently. i've been swamped in schoolwork & next week is an even worse week for me with four midterms & a big research paper due. i'm trying to survive college and hopefully come out sane by the end of it. right now though, it's not looking good.

but that's enough of my complaints about life.

i went out to the bookstore today with the intention of looking for the new postsecret book - A Lifetime of Secrets



i flipped through it, reading one every once in a while. i made sure to not read the whole thing in one sitting, however (i was definitely tempted though). i'll save the entire book when it's at home with me and i'm reading it over a cup of coffee. i'm sure i'll get it eventually but if anyone's looking to buy me a birthday present, i wouldn't object to this ;]

i religiously check postsecret.com every sunday & you should too. knowing that other people are in the same situation you are does make the world a less lonely place.

Daphne Loves Derby, Jenny Loves...

I don't know exactly what I love in life. I feel lost, I feel a sense of drifting.
I skipped my Making of the Modern World lecture for the first time today, which led me to the realization that I'm actually in charge of my life (despite any constraints in this world). It's the most powerful feeling, tragic yet beautifully refreshing in a way.

With that said...

What am I doing with my so-called freedom at this moment? Procrastinating.
10 seconds later though, "it" (whatever "it" may be) kicks in. Is it conscience? Or is it morality that can easily be interpreted as a complex form of self-indulgence derived from wanting to be selfishly productive and successful? Either way, I'm starting my homework at 1:30. Why? Because I'm human. I'll always have things to do.

Farts and Frats

So I'm joining a frat.

Co-ed Fraternity.

History behind it is, the Vietnam War came around and they had to invite girls in.

Dry humor set aside, I love what they're trying to accomplish. I never thougth I'd find a niche in something I was once so uninterested in. Laugh at me, go ahead. I've laughed several times tonight. haha.

3 hours and one boba hour later...

I come home to a very gaseous roommate who I won't name.

-such a short unthoughtful blog...

Artificial Intelligence can kiss my...

So yesterday Jenny &I went on a semi-unsuccessful quest. Our original intentions were to buy our Rilo Kiley tickets for Friday at the Soma box office but alas, my navigator took us to "Soma Galleries."

Change of plans
Then we go to plaza &I get the best deal on a peacoat for 45 cents! It was buy one get one half off so I got a pair of 7 jeans &the peacoat which ended up $20.45 - $20.00 rewards dollars = $0.45! Woohoo.

We had to celebrate with sushi &then ventured off to Sushi House where Jenny found her perfect sushi form - the hand roll.




&then off to surprise fellow SSD-er Vladimir who is experiencing emo sentiments usually inspired by too much homework, O-chem horror, and midterms.



It was a nice reunion.

Not to mention I parked impecabily for the first &only time ever!
THAT is something to celebrate.

Anyways, these are my fellow SSD-er's because you're probably not interested in any more of MY face.

You want need to know these people.

with love,
e